Missions

I've been thinking a lot about missions lately. My brother and his friends will be leaving for theirs in about a year and a half. A year from now he'll probably have his call. When he leaves, I'll be the only child living at home. I'm going to hate it!

Every time I think about it I start crying but I can't help but to think about how different things will be when he leaves. I'll be a senior in high school with no big brother to protect me or give me advice. I won't have my partner in crime by my side. I won't have someone to tell me cheesy jokes to cheer me up. He won't be there to watch me graduate high school or open my mission call. Or give my farewell talk. Things will change. The thing you should know about me is I'm not a fan of change. I know that life is about change but it's hard. I know he'll be doing the right thing when he serves a mission but it's going to be so hard not having him here.

It's crazy to think about how fast we've grown up. It seems like just the other day we were trying to pull each others hair out and now I'm in tears just thinking about the thought of him not being here. Don't get me wrong we still fight but since Ash and Bri moved out and we've gotten older we've also grown closer together. 

I found this song about serving a mission that is so true and makes me bawl every time I listen to it. It's called Two years by Carli Barlow. She wrote the song before she left on her mission. http://youtu.be/rvaIZ3voOdk 

This song describes everything. My favorite lines are: Two years is a time for me to give back for I owe each breath that I breathe. It's only a small thing when you look at eternity. Those two lines really put into perspective how meaningful a mission really is. 

I really want to serve a mission too so depending on when Q and I leave it could be up to 4 years where we don't see each other. :'( It's going to be rough. Especially if Quinton gets married before I come home.

I found this scripture and quote that brings a lot of comfort to me though. "therefore, if ye have desires to serve god, ye are called to the work. - D&C 4:3. "A missionary leaves his family for two years so that those he teaches may be with their families forever"

-Emilie